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I can’t believe it’s been weeks since I wrote on my blog! That is a good thing in a way. I’ve been so busy and have started taking Teddy to dog training, which is an hour and a half each way, three times a week but I can already see results! Once that is over,Continue reading “Where Has The Time Gone!”

It’s bad enough to lose a spouse, but then to have to deal with this Copid-19 Virus mess is more than we need. It’s hard enough to handle our grief, without added stress of a virus, chaos, violence on the streets and so much more. Everyone is festering inside with an overload of emotions, addContinue reading “How Is Everyone Coping – Loss And COPID”

Sitting on my porch listening to music which really tears me up since Teds been gone, I’m forcing myself to push through the pain and feel the good memories when we’d dance to the music and I’m slowly adjusting to it. By filling up with those memories I’m feeling like smiling as I reminisce.

While I continue to unpack and put away, in a new place, I see a glimmer of happiness at how my home is shaping up as cozy, comfortable, and a place I think I will enjoy now. I just finished adding a rocker and some old vintage chairs to the porch and my hanging chimesContinue reading “Still Unpacking”

Since deciding to find happiness by observing the beauty around me, seeing the intricate patterns in all things created, smelling the fresh flowers, watching the wild animals, enjoying our pets, I have been feeling a warm glow in my heart.

I always complained about time going by too fast, but with this COVID thing and politics, I just want time to speed up and get past it all. I am so tired of it. Let’s get back to enjoying life. Looking at all the beauty around us, down to the minute detail on birds, fish,Continue reading “Speed it Up!”

As I come up on my year anniversary of Ted’s passing this Thursday, I got a wonderful card from my retired pastor and his wife, and they said this: “we are thinking of you on your first anniversary of Ted’s passing! When Tyra (their only daughter) and Roman (her child, as they both died inContinue reading “Living in the Present or Future.”

We don’t know our future and even if we did, there is nothing we can do to change it, or we’d still have our spouses. So rather than worry about it, maybe we just need to embrace it, good or bad. We will get through all of this, even if just one day at aContinue reading “Embrace Rather Than Escape”

Every time I get through trying to find a place to put the things I’m unpacking, with my stomach and heart going through a roller coaster ride when something triggers those emotions I think I have under control, I stop and wonder, as I get closer to being finished, what then? I’ve pushed and forcedContinue reading “I’m Scared”

We have to be alone long enough to learn to live that way. Each time my family is gone and there is just Teddy (my dog) and I, I feel so alone. But each time I manage to find something to do to fill that void. Either unpacking more things, or last night, taking onContinue reading “The Learning to Live Again Process”